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Day #0800 – (Wed., Nov. 5, 2025) – (ChatGPT #0186 – Stillness Experiment #10) (-30.1 lbs.)

This is the “Stillness Experiment” Day #010! Coming next? Item #1 on my “ToDo List”: (You can use these symbols: ✅).

By the way, here’s what ChatGPT said about this framework: This is an absolutely stellar 30-day framework — it’s comprehensive but still rhythmic, and it hits your mind–body–spirit axis exactly right.

🌅 Morning Grounding! The “Why”!

#01: 🤔 Read & Reflect! (Neville + Tolle + Becoming Integration): (6:11 pm!)

This morning I stop chasing the man I’ve been trying to become. After one hundred seventy+ days of creating, refining, and reaching, I see that he was never somewhere else. He’s been breathing through every frame I’ve lived. Eckhart calls this Presence. Neville calls it Living in the End. Both point to the same truth: When I am fully here, I am already there.

The next thirty days are not about results — they’re about re-tuning the instrument through which results arrive. I’m teaching my nervous system that safety is not earned through striving; it’s found in awareness. When my body learns to rest, my imagination becomes fertile again. That’s what this Stillness Experiment will do — it rewires the baseline from effort to ease.

I breathe, and air fills my lungs without permission. That is grace — the same grace that moves money, love, and health into form when I stop blocking it with tension. Each calm breath is a rehearsal for peace, and peace is the vibration that makes everything grow.

If lack appears, I smile — that’s an echo, not a prophecy. If desire stirs, I feel it real for a heartbeat, then release it into faith. That’s the marriage of Neville and Tolle: imagination without grasping, surrender without apathy.

Every act today — sipping coffee, writing, walking, feeding the hens — is my quiet line delivery: “I am already him. The world is adjusting to the truth.”

Even my body is learning that truth. At 199 lbs I’ll feel light, strong, and unguarded — but that number isn’t a race; it’s the outer reflection of this inner calm. Peace in the mind becomes balance in the body. That’s the physics of Becoming.


#02: 💫 What These 30 Days Will Do: (6:13 pm!)

  • Re-calibrate the nervous system from fight-or-flight to flow.
  • Dissolve the reflex to measure worth through doing.
  • Reconnect imagination with stillness, so creation feels effortless again.
  • Let the body find its natural weight and rhythm through peace, not pressure.
  • Restore joy in ordinary life — the proof that the work has integrated.

#03: 🕊️ What Comes After: (6:14 pm!)

When the 30 days close, I won’t “return” to Neville — I’ll arrive there new. From presence, imagination becomes play again. From rest, action becomes art. Then I can choose the next experiment — perhaps the 90-day Creation Phase, or Manifesting Mastery Deluxe by Mr. TwentyTwenty, or simply the quiet rhythm of life itself — but it will rise from calm, not craving.

The goal after these 30 days isn’t transformation. It’s stability. A steady peace I can build anything upon.

So I move through today knowing: The work is no longer about Becoming. The work is remembering that I already Am. And from that awareness, all good things begin moving toward me.

🔝 DAILY PHYSICAL CORE!

Approved Foods For 30 Days!!! (1 gallon water per day + AS MUCH AS WANT OF: potatoes, non-starch vegetables, egg whites, oats, spelt flour, black beans, chickpeas, olives, PB2, berries, plant beverages, stevia + FOR COFFEE ONLY: plant-based creamer).

  • #04: 📈 Weigh yourself! (361.9 lbs. – 311.6 lbs. = 51.4 lbs. total weight loss.)
  • ✅ #05: 📉 Record Weight Down in Title (Down More Each Day)!
  • ✅ #06: 🥂 Martini Water Ritual! (This evening!)
    • 🌾 Metamucil (1 tablespoons)
    • 🌾 Collagen (2 scoops)
  • ✅ #07: 💊 Take Vitamins: <>
    • Progressive Multi Men 50+ (one capsule)
    • Silica + Biotin Supplement (one capsule)
    • Omega-3 (1000–2000 mg/day) (one capsule)
    • Resveratrol (two capsules)
  • ✅ #08: 💍 Ring Touch + Whisper! (This evening!)
  • ✅ #09: 🤵 Cufflink / Collar Adjustment! (This evening!)
  • ✅ #10: 😏 The Calm Smirk! (This evening!
  • #11:🧴 Face Moisturizer Routine: <>
    • (AM) Cleanse → “Splash of Water”
    • (PM) Cleanse → CeraVe SA Cleanser
    • (PM) Moisturize → CeraVe Renewing SA Cream
  • #12:🌾 Metamucil Drink (1 tablespoon): (This evening!)
  • ✅ #13:🧴 Dove Pro-Retinol + Firming Cream: (This morning!)
    • Daily (1–2 times per day)
    • Once in the morning after shower (most important)
    • Optional second application at night, especially on belly/flanks
    • Use every day even on non-brushing days for consistency
  • #14:🌾 Metamucil Drink (1 tablespoon): <>
  • ✅ #15: 🫗 DRINK ? cups of water each day! (To Drink:) ==> (Drank: 💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧)

🔝 DAILY MENTAL CORE!

🔝 WEEKLY PHYSICAL & MENTAL CORE!

DayFocus Area
Monday 🌀 Dry Brushing (5-7 minutes): <>
Tuesday☐✅ 🚿 Shampoo + Conditioner Routine — Aussie Miracle Moist Shampoo for 30–60 seconds, rinse, then apply Being BIG HAIR Volumizing Conditioner to mid-lengths and ends for 2–3 minutes before rinsing cool. <>
✅ 👕 Laundry Day: <>
Wednesday 🌀 Dry Brushing (5-7 minutes): <>
🥗 Record “Weight Loss” Video: (Done!)
📹 YouTube SHORTS VIDEO Creation (Created v0039(S) – Fixed Mini Planter)
Thursday 📹 YouTube SHORTS Upload @ 5:45 PM
Friday 🌀 Dry Brushing (5-7 minutes): <>
📡 Social Media Linking: <>
Saturday 📹 YouTube LONG VIDEO Creation
Sunday 📹 YouTube LONG VIDEO Upload @ 5:45 PM

🔝 FUN, FUN, FUN!

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Wednesday
☐✅ 🎸 Music Studio Setup: <>
✅ ✈️ Flight Simulator: (Watched YouTube video: “Absolute beginners guide to starting out with Microsoft Flight Simulator 2024” this morning!)
☐✅ 🎶 Learn Sultans of Swing: <>
☐✅ 🍳 Cooking: <>
✅ 🧹 Clean Barn Suite: (Assembled new counter rack to store spices!)
☐✅ 🌿 Etc.?: <>

📋Additional Daily Notes


This morning began with that quiet sort of expectancy that has no name. The kind that isn’t demanding anything — just listening.

I didn’t have a plan for today, not really. Just the intent to stay aware and watch for the small things.

I thought about how Neville talks about the Bridge of Incidents — how life arranges itself once you accept a new state of being. And I thought about how Tolle says the same thing, but differently: “Be still, and let life move through you.”

So I went out for coffee again. I let the Universe pick the place.

First I thought of Quality Foods, but as I pulled in, someone took the spot in front of me. That felt like a nudge — not rejection, just redirection. So I followed it. Starbucks didn’t feel right either — too cramped, too loud. Then I remembered Benino’s, and something in me said, “Yes. There.”

2025-11-05 - Benini's Blackjack

My favorite seat was taken, but I found one near the window — a new vantage point. Two college girls were studying at a nearby table, and for a second, I wondered if maybe this was the bridge, some scene or connection unfolding in plain sight. But then I realized — maybe the point wasn’t to see the bridge, but to sit still long enough for it to appear on its own.

I ordered my Canadiano, set down a little Blackjack ticket I’d bought at the grocery next door, and took a breath (see photo to the right). The moment felt oddly sacred — a man, a coffee, a ticket, and a quiet willingness to believe that something unseen was already moving.

Before scratching the ticket, I smiled and whispered:

“Show me something that shows me you’re still playing with me. I’m ready for a wink.”

I scratched slowly, left to right, like reading a line of scripture. Nothing big happened. No win, no flash of luck. But I noticed that I didn’t feel disappointment — just calm. Maybe that was the wink: the absence of need.

I sat there, watching light slide across the counter, hearing the murmur of other lives in motion, and realized this experiment isn’t about results anymore. It’s about noticing the quiet precision of each moment — how everything finds its place when I stop forcing it.

If yesterday’s theme was “open the door,” today’s was “don’t rush through it.”

The lesson was simple: the universe doesn’t respond to tension; it responds to trust.
And trust doesn’t shout — it listens.

Tonight, I’ll listen again — maybe through another Maggie Murphy video, maybe through stillness itself. Either way, I know the wink will come when I stop searching for it.

🕊️
Maybe it already did.

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