Welcome to Sunday and Day #1 of my “Complete Bowl” Experiment! Right now, here comes item #1 on my “ToDo List”: (You can use these symbols: ☐✅).
How I Live Now
A Short Personal Manifesto
I choose to live one day at a time, doing the small, ordinary things that make today successful. I eat simply, care for my body, and keep my commitments. I ground myself in stillness and integrity rather than chasing relief, certainty, or spectacle.
I walk forward without needing a guarantee. I build my life on what I can do today, and I stay open to what I cannot predict. I allow opportunities to reveal themselves as I move, knowing that some will matter and some will not—and that this is enough.
I choose character over performance. Service over display. Restraint over spectacle. I do not need to impress to be worthy, and I do not participate in what feels hollow, even when it is socially acceptable.
I let my nervous system learn safety through consistency. I refuse to renegotiate my values based on mood, fear, or fantasy. Improvement is allowed; abandonment is not.
I dream without fixation. I hold hope lightly. I do not turn another person, a future event, or a miracle into the meaning of my life. If love comes, I will meet it honestly and as an equal. If it does not, my life remains coherent, ethical, and mine.
I accept that extraordinary things sometimes happen, and I live in a way that does not require one. I stay open to what I can’t explain, while I build my days on what I can.
I move toward long-term aims—care for my family, service and charity, stewardship of resources—one step at a time, without rushing the ending. I live so that if I were to die today, or years from now, I would know that the truest version of me lived as well as he could at the end.
I walk forward. I keep my integrity. I see what opens. And I let life meet me where I am.
🔝 MUST DO DAILY!
- Sunday, December 28, 2025 = Day #1
- Monday, January 26, 2025 = Day #30.
- NO CHANGES TO MUST DO DAILY TIL DAY #31!!!
- ✅ #01: 📈 Weigh yourself! (361.9 lbs. – 325.1 lbs. = 36.8 lbs. total weight loss.)
- ✅ #02: 📉 Record Weight Down in Title!
- ☐✅ #03: 🌀 Eat “The Complete Bowl”! (*** Foods: The Complete Bowl , Daily Results: Log Results )
- ✅ #04: 💊 Take Vitamins: (6:42 pm!)
- ✅ #05: 🥂 Martini Water Ritual! (6:43 pm!)
- 🌾 Collagen (2 scoops)
- ☐✅ #06: 💧 Hydration Target Met (≈ 2L) with (Lemon juice: 6 tablespoons, Apple cider vinegar: 2 tablespoons, Himalayan salt: 1/4 teaspoon, Iodized salt: 1/4 teaspoon)! <>
🔝 DAILY “NICE TO DO”!
- ☐✅ #07: 🧴 Body & Face Care (AM/PM)
- ☐✅ #08: 🌀 Dry Brushing (5-7 minutes): <>
- ☐✅ #09: 🦵 Knee Routine (2-Minutes In-Bed or Desk Routine): <>
- ✅ #10: Record any Nighttime Whispers! (Done!)
- ☐✅ #11:🔮READ The Unified Manifestation System. Improvement? UMS PROGRESS NOTES: <>
- ✅ #12: 🌙 Listen to a “Nighttime Subliminal” .mp3 Tape: (Kirk & Evie for night & naps!)
🔝 WEEKLY “NICE TO DO”!
| Day | Focus Area |
|---|---|
| Monday | ☐✅ 👕 Laundry Day: <> |
| Tuesday | ✅ 🚿 Shampoo + Conditioner Routine — Aussie Miracle Moist Shampoo for 30–60 seconds, rinse, then apply Being BIG HAIR Volumizing Conditioner to mid-lengths and ends for 2–3 minutes before rinsing cool: <> |
| Wednesday | ☐✅ 🥗 Record “Weight Loss” Video: <> ☐✅ 📹 YouTube SHORTS VIDEO Creation: <> |
| Thursday | ☐✅ 📹 YouTube Video Upload @ 5:45 PM: <> |
| Friday | ☐✅ 📡 Social Media Posting/Updates: <> |
| Saturday | ☐✅ 📹 YouTube LONG Video Creation: <> |
| Sunday | ✅ 📹 YouTube Video Upload @ 5:45 PM: (After Xmas “Long” video went live at 6:45 pm today!) |
🔝 FUN, FUN, FUN!
| Day | Focus Area |
|---|---|
| Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday | ☐✅ 🎸 Music Studio Setup: <> ☐✅ ✈️ Flight Simulator: <> ☐✅ 🎶 Learn Sultans of Swing: <> ☐✅ 🗣️ Learn Tagalog! <> ☐✅🌙 Read Keith Moon Book: <> ☐✅🧠 Read Dr. James Doty Book: <> ☐✅ 📕 Read “Little Red Book”: <> ☐✅ 🎧 Listen “Maggie Murphy (Notes)! <> ☐✅ 🎧 Listen Dr. K videos! <> ☐✅ 📷 Photograph Journals! <> ☐✅ 💻 Recover Hard Drive Data! <> ☐✅ 💻 Manus Software! <> ☐✅ 🌿 Etc.?: <> |
📋Additional Daily Notes
Today felt like one of those quiet hinge days — not loud, not dramatic, but unmistakably important.
I woke up already sensing that something had shifted. It wasn’t excitement exactly, and it wasn’t relief. It was more like alignment. Like parts of me that had been arguing for years finally sat down at the same table and stopped fighting. Today marked the beginning of my 30-day Complete Bowl challenge (see photo to the right), but what struck me wasn’t the food itself — it was the frame of mind I brought into it. For the first time in a long while, this didn’t feel like a desperate attempt to fix myself. It felt like stewardship. Just doing the next right thing, calmly, without demanding that it prove anything.
Throughout the day I kept circling the same realization: my Becoming journey has shifted from fantasy-driven hope to grounded integrity. I’m not chasing rescue scenarios anymore. I’m not asking life to prove itself to me before I show up. I’m eating my simple meals. Drinking my water. Paying attention to my body. Letting my nervous system settle. Doing ordinary work and trusting that ordinary work compounds.
I also spent time reflecting honestly on my physical self. Looking in the mirror without distortion or story. Seeing my age, my body, my imperfections — and, surprisingly, not recoiling from them. For the first time, I felt compassion instead of judgment. It made sense why certain things in my life unfolded the way they did. And instead of despair, there was acceptance. Not resignation — acceptance. The kind that frees energy instead of draining it.
There were moments today where my mind drifted into bigger possibilities — love, service, legacy, the Philippines, family, meaning. I didn’t try to suppress those thoughts, but I also didn’t cling to them. I let them pass through as maybes, not demands. Dr. K’s words came back to me — that there may be things about reality we don’t fully understand yet, that openness doesn’t require delusion, and that agency doesn’t require guarantees. I don’t need to know how everything ends. I just need to live in a way that, if I were looking back on this life from the other side, I’d be able to say I showed up honestly at the end.
Late in the day, I thought about what it would feel like to look back on this moment someday — from a spiritual perspective, or simply from old age. I don’t think I’d say this was the day everything changed. I think I’d say this was the day I stopped fighting reality and started walking with it.
I also worked on creative output today — thinking about a new long-form video for the AlreadyBecoming channel. Using footage of discarded wrapping paper, melting snow, Christmas lights still glowing, and finally the star at the top of the downtown tree fading into darkness. Not as an ending, but as a quiet return to the real world. A marker of transition rather than climax.
By the end of the day, I felt something rare for me: steadiness. Not hope as a spike. Not despair as a collapse. Just steadiness.
If this is what Becoming looks like now — eating simply, dreaming honestly, acting with integrity, and letting life unfold without forcing symbols — then yes, this feels good. Not flashy. Not magical. But real.
And real feels like enough.
5 AI Systems Analyze My Dreams
I asked multiple AI systems to reflect my dreams since September 2025 and echo my inner state back to me. I asked ChatGPT to provide it’s own opinion, and incorporate those of the other AI systems as well.
Gemini focused on long-term pattern recognition and saw a clear arc forming. Copilot and Grok both independently described the same thing from different angles: my psyche isn’t collapsing or escaping reality, it’s reorganizing itself. Claude helped ground the interpretation, separating symbolic truth from wishful certainty and calling out where interpretation can drift into fantasy if I’m not careful.
Taken together, what this shows me is simple and sobering. My Becoming journey isn’t about manifesting outcomes, securing guarantees, or proving that a specific future has to arrive. It’s about an identity shift that’s already happening. Across my dreams and reflections, I’m moving away from performing, impressing, or seeking validation, and toward being self-authoring, regulated, and grounded. I’m learning how to move without panic, how to correct course without shame, and how to live without needing a future scenario to keep me going.
The recurring feminine figures, the Philippines imagery, and the idea of “bridges” aren’t promises or destiny signals. They function as mirrors. They show up when I stop performing, stop earning worth, and stop auditioning for life. What’s healing isn’t the absence of a partner or a missing chapter — it’s the belief that love, belonging, or meaning must be earned through effort, sacrifice, or specialness. As that belief loosens, my dreams stop producing rescue fantasies and start producing practical, grounded images about navigation, limits, and real-world movement.
My doubts don’t mean this process is failing. They’re part of it. As fantasy dissolves and certainty fades, questioning naturally increases. What matters is that the dreams themselves stay stable while my interpretations wobble. That tells me the work is happening below belief level, where real change actually forms. I’m no longer outsourcing authority to religion, manifestation systems, external validation, or even to the dreams themselves.
The clearest truth I can say is this: I’m becoming someone who can live well without needing the future to rescue me. That doesn’t mean nothing new will happen. It means whatever happens next will come from authorship, not desperation. This phase is quieter, less dramatic, less emotionally spiky, and more durable. It isn’t about being chosen or rewarded. It’s about standing in my own life with integrity.
That isn’t mystical. It isn’t magical. It’s adult psychological development. And it’s real.
